was talking to paro last nite coz we couldn’t sleep… it’s been really hot and stuffy these few nites…. anyway… we were just sharing about well… ermm…. nvm… haha… stuff dat only she knows and i know… and NOT for u to find out… haha…… it was while we were talking only did i realise sumthing… i’ve always thought i totally got over my so called liking for jamie.. YES!! satisfied?? i totally admit it ok? happy?? but it doesn’t matter anymore… anyway… all this while i’ve been telling myself dat i don’t like him anymore… but i realised dat till now, i still, as paro says “have a soft corner for him”… it sumtimes still pains me to see dat he’s going through sum rough patches… i see his weird msn nicks, and always feel this itch to go ask wat’s wrong.. but oh well wat’s da point? it’s not dat i can help or anything… listening to ppl’s problems is one of my worst departments… when i listen to wat they say… i just feel akward and tongue-tied… stunned! it’s like i’m asking for trouble… i’m crazy! how can a silly crush like dat last like for ages????!!!! looks like i’ll just have to give myself a few hard knocks in da head to make me wake up… hahaha… ahh…in da meantime… i shall be dreaming of sum other nice guy who comes along and sweeps me off my feet… hahaha…. doesn’t have to be anytime soon… i’m in no hurry to jump into anything just as yet… do i regret not making a move? i dunno… but all i can say is, dat it was sure the right thing to do, not getting myself involved in anything in JC… imagine… i couldn’t even handle my studies alone…. wat made me think i would be able to handle other things as well? thank God i still had dat wee bit of sense left in me… i guess i will always wonder about wat could have been wif jamie… but i think it’s really time for closure, don’t u think?
on the lighter note… here a list of qualities paro and i look for in a guy (sum mine, sum hers and sum both)… hahaha… u may think sum hilarious… laugh on!
- to be continued…. lazy to type all of it now…. haha…
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